Quick update for the long delay

These last few weeks have been pretty relaxed at home, but stressed at the same time when you take into account the waiting we've been doing for Molly's ANC to reach a level high enough for her to (1) get off of antibiotics and (2) start chemo treatment again. As of Thursday afternoon, it was at 600, which is above the number it needed to be to stop the antibiotics and de-access her port. But it needs to be at 750 in order to start chemo again, so we're still waiting. The Home Care nurse is coming over on Tuesday morning to take blood for labs again, and we're crossing all our fingers and toes that the ANC will be high enough to start chemo treatment again.

Normally I would be thrilled to have 4 weeks off from the weekly clinic visits, but this is hard on me because I am so worried that the cancer cells will have time to build up again and we'll have to start back at square one. Sigh, whatever happens, I just have to keep calm and carry on I suppose. There's no quitting for us.

Me and Molly's Daddy watched the movie My Sister's Keeper (2009) last week and it kind of hit home with us. Not the part where they had another child to use as a donor to keep their daughter alive, but the part where the mother did all she had to and all she could to keep her daughter healthy as long as possible. If you haven't seen it yet, ignore the remainder of this paragraph; there be spoilers ahead. Anyway, if Molly gets to the point where she really would have a better life if we let the cancer take her in it's own time, I hope that I can let it and let her have a happy {however long she has left} instead of taking my efforts to cure her so far that she has to resort to planning her own death. And I hope that the point at which that situation might become true is very clear so we don't have to dance around it forever with feelings of guilt.

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